What is Ego...?

What is EGO...?

This enemy that we have inside us is not our self; it's not our personality. It's only a temptation, This is the seed of the problem ego. We confuse our personality with sin; we marry these two things, and we have a wrong impression of who we are.' Archimadrite Dionysios

The negative ego is that part of ourselves which operates solely out of selfishness, isolation, fear, and fragmentation, as well as embracing the entire gamut of lower impulses, tendencies and expressions. It is often the place from which the inner child is operating, without proper parenting. It basically functions from the level of the subconscious." Dr Joshua David Stone.

Do you have an EGO in yourself?

Well I think, from the observation on me, myself and I... Definitely I have it. It just a matter of whether it is a big or small. I always want to win should there is or are any confrontation. It's hard for me to say that I'm sorry. And sometime, it's hard also for me to forgive. Will always find a reason to blame others without accepting that it is actually my fault at the first place. Not being sensitive enuf to understand what people wants and expect from me and also to anticipate their feelings. And here I am again ... blaming this so called EGO for all the mistakes that I've done.

Ego in me perhaps....? Yaiksss.....!!!

Manipulated

ma·nip·u·late - məˈnɪpyəˌleɪt

–verb (used with object), -lat·ed, -lat·ing.
1. to manage or influence skillfully, esp. in an unfair manner: to manipulate people's feelings.
Manipulate ehh...? People said that I kinda people who so called 'terer' how to manipulate others. Is it? Hmm... As far that I know, I only manipulate the situation, not the people. Thus, shud there is/are someone who felt that they are been manipulated by me... Sorry..!! Ekekeke...

Talking about manipulating people, there is 'someone' who has been manipulated last weekend. 'Someone' has been informed that there will be a meeting with one Datin regarding new project that involve with the company of mine. So I needed someone to be with me just to pacify this Datin should she going to be confused during the meeting. Hehehe... 'Someone' did pick me up at my place as promised the day before. On the way to the 'Datin's House', someone looked a bit panicked. 'Someone' keep on asking on who else shud be joining us. I just kept quiet.

Reached at one of the sites, suddenly 'someone' asked, "Why are we here? I thought we gonna meet Datin at 4?". I said, "Rileks arr... Actually the appointment is at 6. And somemore I had something to deal with mother nature here". 'Someone' silent. 'Someone's' face looks pale. Ekekekeke.... Reached at the car park and 'someone' a bit puzzled saw 3 of someone's staff there. 'Someone' wondered, "why they all are here ehh?". I said, "Warrghhh... How come you don't know that they are working on Saturday and even Sunday?". Someone can only smile.

Once finish my business with mother nature, I said, "Ok lets go now. We're late oledi. So the 3 datins also follow us. Someone felt a bit puzzled, "Aik.. Can come arr? No problem with the Datin meh?" I said, "Nevermind arrr.. They are the Datin as well". Without 'someone' knowing that currently 'someone' is being manipulated, 'someone' just follow. On the way to the so called the Datin's house, 'someone' keep on blabbering as usual without knowing the actual destination.

Once arrived to the destination, then 'someone' realised that 'someone' has been cheated all the way. Muakakakakaka..... Mangs arr this 'someone'. Very easy to 'tipu'. Kekekeke.... 'Someone' face looks ok automatically. All the butterflies in 'someone' tummies suddenly gone when 'someone' knew that there is actually no Datin. Kakakaka.... 'Someone'.... Actually it is a surprise birthday dinner to you arranged by your staff. To plan with you knowing all about it... I think it's impossible knowing who you are. Once again... 'Someone'... You are SQUARE arr... Akakakakaka......

Even this little guy can do his devil's face. Muakakakaka.........

Interrogation session...

How do you feel if let say you've been asked with lots of question again and again and again when you actually know the answer but you don't want to answer coz you felt uncomfortable to answer it? Hehehe... It's happened to someone that tried to cover all the answers to all the questions that were thrown by the so called interviewer. Been informed that the interviewee (ada ka perkataan nie) is a kind of people that is very slumber and spontaneus. Tried to ask and test 'someone' with a simple question before. Well not bad at all. All the answers given to all the questions threw to 'someone' answered spontaneusly and with full of confident.

But as what people said, you will not always be on top, somehow and someday when the time comes, you surely going to be pushed by someone else and you will fall. Hehehe.... It's just a matter of how hard you will fall. Ekekeke... Today... 'Someone' had been asked bertubi tubi regarding someone's life and future love one. Don't know why, suddenly 'someone' sit down besides the parking lot and starting to act awkward. Kekekeke... Seems that 'someone' tried to change the topic for not being question anymore. But 'someone' failed since the interrogator was quick enuf to understand the MO (Modus Operandi).. Akakaka... Until at the end, seems like 'someone' can't stand anymore and even cannot faced the interrogator and frens.

According to 'someone's frens, this is the first time they see 'someone' speechless'. To be exact... 'Speeclessest'... Ekekekeke.... Sowey yerk 'someone'.. Ekekeke......

Malu arr tuh yerr......

Accident...

Accident..!! Well.. It's not the accident that you have in mind. The accident here is actually the same accident, but in a different mode. Ekekeke... Many types of accident actually. Accidentally met with someone, accidentally hurt someone, accidentally hit someone (bulih ker..?? haha) and accidentally in love... (hahaha... Cam tajuk lagu nie.. OST Shrek).

Sometimes, the thing that we least expected to happen... happened to us. If we thought that we never going to meet our old schoolmate, especially primary school, we meet them in a place where it is the last place we would think to bump into them. If we thought that we would never get caught doing illegal things, then we will be caught. If we thought that someone else wouldn't know when we talk bad or good (selalu nyer Bad arr) about him or her, somehow they will know about it. Hehehe... And especially when we speak about someone that we adore...... There you go.. Speaking of the devil.. Here he/she comes.. Ekekeke... Mau terkedu time tuh. Kan? Kan? Kan?

'Suratan atau kebetulan'... I did wrote about this long time ago. Post titled 'Suratan atau Kebetulan'. Ekekeke...




Accidentally In Love by Counting Crows (Shrek 2 OST)

So she said "What's the problem baby?
" What's the problem? I don't know
Well, maybe I'm in love
I think about it every time
I think about it
Can't stop thinking 'bout it
How much longer will it take to cure this?
Just to cure it cause I can't ignore it
If it's love
Makes me wanna turn around and face me
But I don't know nothing 'bout love
Come on, come on
Turn a little faster
Come on, come on
The world will follow after
Come on, come on
Cause everybody's after love
So I said "I'm a snowball running
Running down into the spring that's coming"
All this love melting under blue skies
Belting out sunlight
Shimmering love
Well, baby, I surrender
To the strawberry ice cream
Never ever ender
All this love
Well I didn't mean to do it
But there's no escaping your love
These lines of lightning
Mean we're never alone,
Never alone, no, no
Come on, Come on
Move a little closer
Come on, Come on
I want to hear you whisper
Come on, Come on
Settle down inside my love
Come on, come on
Jump a little higher
Come on, come on
If you feel a little lighter
Come on, come on
We were once upon a time in love
We're accidentally in love
Accidentally in love…
I'm In Love, I'm in Love, I'm in Love, I'm in Love, I'm in Love, I'm in Love, Accidentally…
Come on, come on
Spin a little tighter
Come on, come on
And the world's a little brighter
Come on, come on
Just get yourself inside her Love!...
I'm in love!

Masih aku terasa....

Masih aku terasa...!! Tajuk lagu kumpulan Gersang zaman aku sekolah sekolah dulu. Man Bai pon dah tak nyanyi dah sekarang.. Masih aku terasa yerr...Cakap bab terasa nie, kadang2 tuh kita mmg mudah rasa terasa walaupon benda yg dikata pada kita tuh cuma perkara biasa. Tapi pasal mungkin masa tuh kita tengah emo ker atau level emo kita terlebih sikit dari biasa kot.. Itu yg buat kita terasa tu... Dalam bab terasa nie, kadang kadang tu, bukan setakat orang bercakap jer. Thru perbuatan orang pon kadang kita boleh terasa. Alahaiii...!!! Sensitipnya kita bila time datang mood cepat terasa nie kan?


Terasa ni kadang tuh ok gak.. Time terasa tuh lar baru kita nak pikir balik atau nak muhasabah balik diri kita samada kita ada buat silap ker tak dengan orang. Kalau tak... Kita selalu pikir apa yg kita buat tu betul jer tanpa pikir pasal hati ngan perasaan orang lain. Samada orang tuh terasa ker... tak ker... So bila kita dah terasa nie, at least kita tau arr, apa perasaan orang bila apa yg kita buat kat orang tuh kena balik kat kita... Kan? Kan? Kan?

Lagi satu, bab bab terasa ni pon kadang tuh tak ok gak. Macam kita nie terlalu paranoid arr plak. Orang tak der apa apa, kita pulak yg macam terlebih terasa. Dalam perkataan lain ... perasan. Hehehe... Pantang nampak cam orang gegelak jer, kita terasa cam orang tuh ngata kat kita. Padahal tak der kena mengena langsung. Bila kengkawan terdekat ngan kita kengkadang buat plan tak include kan kita pon, kengkadang kita terasa macam kita dipinggirkan. Entah entah dorang tengah plan nak buat something yg surprise untuk kita. Hmm... Macam macam arr...

Basically dalam bab-bab terasa nie, terpulang jugak pada individual. Samada nak take it positively or sebaliknya. Depends on people perception kot (apasal ayat nie selalu sangat disebut sejak kebelakangan nie ehh...). Anyway... Tak salah kadang kadang kalu kita nak terasa, tapi bak kata orang... Nak terasa tuh biar arr bertempat. Jangan sampai efek pada kerja ngan hubungan kita sesama kawan udahhhh......

Ishh... Dah terasa lak nie... Huk... huk... huk...

Are you in the hit list....??

Here I am again. Staying and waiting for the reds and the blues ECL game. Hmm.. Don't care who win the semi final, as long as Man U defeated Barca and go straight to the final. To you red fans... Gud luck on your game and eventhough you are playing in your own turf tonite, doesn't mean that the blues cannot take sometin' out of you infront of your nose. Hehehehe... Can't wait to watch Man U game tomorrow....

There is an important meeting this morning at 10 am. Basically the meeting called by the COO to announce about the bonus that company will pay on end of April should there be no problem on financial department to do their things. How much? Well.. Based on the ratings that have been made earlier. Indicative values... Arghhh...!! No need to mention in here I think. What I can say is, you shud be grateful on whatever you will get. That's why it's called bonus rite? Not a mandatory... Bonus... Lucky me if I can get the amount that I wished for...

Had a discussion with the COO and the PD regarding one of the solution that we've provided up north. Seems to be a problem. Proposed a work around on the matter. Will act on it soonest possible. Committed to complete the work around configuration by end of today. Still did not get any report from the ground whether the task that assigned earlier have been completed or not. Hmm... Another matter, someone from Central Site has been proposed to take care one of the solution supplied up north. Basically it is a request from North PM himself. Got no objection. Hehehe... So starts from now on, you will do a lot of travelling to up north my dear. Your wish already been granted to travel up north. Hahaha....

Internet Down.. Aiyorkkk

The internet is down... The internet is down... Mayday...!!! Mayday...!!! Mayday...!!! Received a call from various sites this morning reported that their internet line is down. It's even worst when the center of our IPVPN is also down. Erkk... Call TM and report the problem. Call the TM AE to push their technical to rectify the problem. Call... arrr... who to call some more arr...?? Haa....

All the bosses starting to make noise coz cannot download all the emails. Well at least we've already confirmed that it's ISP problem. Technical problem. Well thats what they informed us. Lucky that I have this so call 3G card. Ehehehe.. People who don't have the internet access looks crazy and don't know what they are doing. Fuhh.. Just imagine, how big does this technology called internet can give an impact to us.

Evening I have a chat with other PMs. Just have a nice coffee and teh tarik session at techno cafe (hahaha.. Managed to convince this PM not to go to Pasar Malam...Ekekeke). Suddenly someone came out with the old days story. The time we used to hang out at Jumpa. The Friday nite life at Jalan P. Ramlee. Ushaing all the aweks that lalu lalang on their way to the 'Beach'. Wallawey... Miss that time dowh.. Suddenly there's a silent ......... Then I saw a big grin on their faces. Hahahaha... Rerupa nyer semua terkenang .. Ekekeke... Again.. We will only miss the thing that sometimes we did not realize that we've already missed it. Kan?

Okay againn....

Akhirnya..!! Alhamdulillah. Sihat kembali. Setelah 3 hari rasa cam tak sihat. Petang tadi after kerja kerja menyangkul kebun kat belakang umah tu, setelah keluar semua peluh peluh jantan tuh.. Hahaha.. Badan terasa cargas balik. Dalam tengah seronot menyangkol tuh, sekali ujan pon turun. Apalagi.. Kelam kabuts lari. Bukan takut ujan, takut badan yg dah nak elok nie jadik tak sihat balik. Sok dah nak kerja. Kang tak pasal pasal MC lak (seorang pekerja yg bagus kalau bulih tak nak MC.. Ekekeke).

Weekend.. Nothing much. Man U gave me a bit of heart attack again. 1st half game was sooooo... not like Man U. Arghh..!! Tension. Anyway... Lucky that they got the equalizer at the 88th minute. Tevez again.. Ronaldo's game was not so Ronaldo yesterday. He's a bit quite until the last 15 minutes of the game. It's okay. There's 3 big games awaiting for us this week. Weekdays with Barcelona, weekend with Chelsea and again Barcelona.. Woww...!! Gonna be a busy week for all the devil's fan.

As usual there will be a 929 meeting tomorrow morning. Sure sangap lagi aku nie. Arghh...!! Need to get updates from my peer. Especially for Alor Setar site.

Somehow I managed to get Marie Digby album called 'Unfold'. Perghh.. Layan.. Memang layann.. Eventhough I've heard all the song that she sing before this in youtube, this album gives me lots of pleasure by it's recording quality. Satisfy? Yup.. Say it again will be my no 1 choice.

Well.. This week need to find a time to send Kassim for his scheduled maintenance. The mileage reading already due. Not Monday, busy with meeting. Tuesday perhaps. Yess... Definitely Tuesday. No more delay. Hehehe...

Those Hard Times

Everybody have their bad days or bad times at least a couples of times in their life. When we looked back to these hard times when it had passed, it definitely gives us something to remember and make us grown up and be more matured to face our life in the future. Bad or worst... those are the times when we sometimes decided to run away from it. Facing the problems? No.. the easiest escape route is to run away from it. But nope... we decided to face it and settle it one by one in our own way. The grown up ways. Think that is the deifferences between grown ups and children.. Just imagine what had happened if we ran away from it in the beginning? We will face it again and we still don't know how to solve it...

When those times or days are gone.. We felt relief.. We felt free.. And of course.. We felt satisfied..!! Why?! Because we dare to face the problem instead of running away from it. No matter how it will turn out, at least we proved to ourself that we are not a coward..!! No matter what other people would say, as long as we know, deep inside our very own self, there is a hero who dare to accept all the challenges..!!

Made a promise to myself, not to be too easy this time around should anyone or someone promised me with everything but they actually don't mean anything. It has been several occasions and I just don't learn from it. Need to learn on not to put high hopes for anything from anyone ever ever again... Just keep my concentration on what I am doing the best without listening to all those empty promises. Need to activate the hard hearted kinda guy whom I've been known before... Sometimes everyone just don't know when someone try to change and try to take advantage out of it...




These Hard Times by Matchbox Twenty...

Morning falls like rain into the city life
There goes another night
Losing my breath in waves
Knowing that ever crash is bleading the hourglass
And taking the strife from all our lives
Everyone keeps talking
They promise you everything
But they don't mean anything
We may loose our focus
There's just too many words
We're never meant to learn
And we don't feel so alive
So goodbye, these days are gone
And we can't keep holding on
When all we need is some relief
Though these hard times Through these hard times
Move your hands in circles
Keeping me hypnotized
The power behind your eyes
Move around your bedroom cursing the naked sky
You should be here tonight
But you stay alone and cry
Say goodbye, these days are gone
And we can't keep holding on
When all we need is some relief
Through these hard times
(whoa) There's something missing
(Oh whoa) You'll never feel it but you (Oh whoa) You're gonna feel it when it's gone
When it's gone
Say goodbye, these days are gone
And we can't keep holding on
When all we need is some relief
Through these hard times
(hey) these Hard times
(oh no now) Hard times
Hard times
Say goodbye, these days are gone
Say goodbye, these days are gone
These days are gone

Cold Saturday...

Saturday again...!! Since I got a flu since yesterday, it already spreaded into a headache. Eghh..!! Srroottt..!! Aaa chumm...!! Arghh...!! Aaachum..!! Penat tuh asyik meleleh jerr nie..

Enjoyed my FridayNiteFutsal yesterday Playing not really a full time. Giving others chances to play as well. Went in again to replace the guys who seems to burnt out all his stamina. Hahaha.. Apalar yob..Muda lagi dah pancit. Sorry to Fendy for 'giving' him injury (tak sengaja beb..!!). My flu hasn't 100% okay. I wished by running all around the pitch and sweating myself will make me okay. But.. still the same. The virus somehow is very tegar.

I'm a bit puzzled to my appetite especially when I'm feeling not very well. Hmm... I ate a bowl of tomyam sotong with nasi putih before my FridayNiteFutsal. After finished the session, at mamak restaurant, I ate some more. This time I ordered tandoori chicken. It seems that the tandoori wasn't enuf for me. I've ordered murtabak daging afterwards. Not to mentioned that I had 5 glasses of teh o limau suam..!! Some of my mates said that I'm 'bela' something. One of the guys also ask Zul to azan besides my left ears. Kalau tak pon takbir pon ok.. Huh..!! Giler apa?? Kekeke.. But seriously, I don't know why. For the past 3 days, it seems that my appetite is growing. Hehehe.. Gooooodd.. At least I can add up a little bit of tembam to my pipi. Muahahahaha...

Freaking Friday...

FridayNiteFutsal@ExtremePark as usual tonite. Hopefully everybody will turn up as usual. Reached office a bit late. Supposed to have a meeting around 11.00 am. Hmm... Nothing happened. Sp proceed with no meeting. Continue my unplanned discussion with others.Received this so called from the boss around 11.30 am. Erkk.. freak me out since there was supposed to be no meeting or problem as I know.

Me: "Hallo boss".

Boss:"Hallo.. Just need to know from you, I try to connect my laptop to our office wireless. It asked me the wep key number, what is the number huh?"

Me: (Fuhhh... Ingatkan mender)... "Owhh.. The webkey number arr Boss. The numbers are **********".

Boss: "Wait a minute, I key in it now" (sambil menekan keyboard..makk aii kuat nyer. Cam mesin taip la plak...). "Okay bang, seems connected and okay".

Me: "Is that it boss? Anything else?"

Boss: "Nope. That's it. Thank you".

Me: "Okay Boss. No prob". (I hang up... Perghh... Ingatkan apa dia. Itu jer... Legaaa...)

Went for my Friday prayer with all the boys at our usual place. Kg Dato Ahmad Razali Dengkil. Hmm.. After prayer, we have our tempe goreng, pisang tanduk goreng and ubi goreng. Hmm... What a delicious meal (for me at least.. Makanan orang kampung kann...). Lepaking at that stall for quite sometimes. Suddenly it rains heavily. Uncle who decided to go off early also have to stayback with us. After a while, it started to cool down a bit. Uncle can't wait and decided to get the car. I follow.. Arghh..!! Forgot my umbrella. And as a result, now I have a cold. Aaachummm.... Errr... Aaachum..

Arghh..!! Hate in tihs condition. Well I've been informed by the doctors who treated me during my dengue fever, after I recover, my antibodi will be quite weak. Means that I will be easily attack by a fever or flu. Hmm.. Now I know why.. ohh yes!! Did remembered last time that my platlet level was down below 40 I think. Hmm... What's the normal level yeah?? Forgot oledi maa..

Hopefully everything will be ok for my FridayNiteFutsal session... Aaaachummmm.....!!!

Terkena...

Terkenaa...!! Selalunya bila kita berjaga-jaga untuk tidak terkena, masa itu larr kita akan terkena. Waaa kenaa bebb...

Bab kena mengena nie, paling tak best sekali kalau kita dikenakan oleh pengena yang kita percaya tak mungkin akan mengenakan kita. Walaupun kadangkala tu kita dah banyak kali terkena, tapi everytime si pengena nie nak kenakan kita, as if macam kita tak leh nak detect lak pengenaan tuh bakal dikenakan (errkk... paham ker korang nie.. jangan terkena dah). Tau-tau jerr, wakenaaaabebbb...!! Nak kena install anti-kena arr. Yang ala-ala bole vibrate gitu.

So pesanan pada anda semua.... Watch out!! Lagi kita berhati-hati tak nak terkena.... laaagi arr kita akan terkena.

Wakenaaabebbbb....!!!

Dull Wednesday & Happy 100th post....

Happy 100th posts in this BLOG..!!! Hmm.. This entry is the 100th post in kampung101.blogspot.com. Its been a while since my 1st post here. Started as a trial. During the begining of this blog, nothing much to say and need to think first before I write anything. Now.. Seems like everyday I have to update. It's not like it is a must for me, but it has been like a routine activity. Need to think no more before I write anything here. Just login and there I go... Seems like there are lots of things in my mind that I wanna to write in here, especially the thing that happen to me or to my surrounding everyday and especially all the updates of MANCHESTER UNITED FC's games.

My first entry....

"Assalammualaikum....Hmm... Bermula sudah kerjaya blog aku nie. Apsal bz nak blogging nih? Dah tade kerja dah ker? Ntah lar... Mcm dah jadik trend ler pulok.. Mungkin dah jadik kebiasaan kot. Cuma aku jer yg ketinggalan. Atau pun mungkin aku yg malas nak buat perubahan atau percubaan.. Ehh.. Apa yg aku mengarut nie? Ntah larrr... layannnnn......"

Started with a plain page, until I know how to add all those page elements. Thanks to you out there who had been nice to guide me how to improve my skill in blogging world. Thanks also to you guys who had follow this blog and keep on 'pushing' me to update no matter where you are. To all the 'silent' reader, appreciated your interest and thanks for all the emails. As for your request for the pictures that I have posted in here, well I still think that its not that precious or good enuf for me to fulfill your request. Still have lots to learn from the master. Wanna be great like Bro Azli Jamil

Today... Seems like almost everybody around me in a baddd moodd. Whether they really in a bad mood or its just me who think that they all are in that mood. Hmm... Stressed bout work maybe. Anyway, ended up with chaos and back to normal. Hehehe... Gud for you guys. As for me, still a bit furious with this matsaleh. Budus tak leh nak diajor.... Kekeke....

Absorbbb....

Absorbing all the pressures. Yup...!! Just like a sponge. That is what sometimes a leader have to do. But not all are the same. Very rarely to find in an organization. Normally what a leader will do is to transfer the pressure to others. Especially their sub ordinate. Is it fair? Hmm... What's fair in life. Nothing is fair. As a middle management, need to think and know when to absorb the preassure and when to pressure others. Am I intelligent enuf to know and understand the concept? Still learning. Sometimes... as an ordinary people in this extra ordinarary world, I do make mistakes. There are many peoples felt and still feel down along the way during engaging or working with me. Is it fair to them? Well.. It's up to the person to judge. For me, I just wanna be as profesional as I could. Not more than that. Work is work. Frustrated... Yesss!!! Definitely I felt frustrated sometimes as a normal person. But again, thats life. It will definitely teach me, myself and I to improve in the future. Wooooowhhh..... That is it...

So to you who know who you are, again and again and again... I want to seek for your forgiveness for what that I've done or said to you all this while and I will try not to repeat the same mistakes again if I can.

Actually the thing about absorbing that I wanna say and a bit impressed here is about this gel thingy. The one that people put in the vase or jar to hold plants or flowers. This gel thingy is soooooo small. But when you put it in water for one night, the daya after... the size will be bigger and biger and bigger. Hmm... Kudos to those who invent or discover about this gel tingy. Eventhough I think it doesn't need a rocket scientist to do some research when they first wanna market this gel thingy. Hehehe.....

Hadapi Dengan Senyuman

Alahai mat saleh. Mat saleh that I meant here actually is the orang putih. Orang putih Australia lak tuh. Eiii... Hang kata hang teraaa... Tapi lembab. Penat nak layan. Sebelum nie kengkawan hang yg Kelly Ng dok beriya jer nak cepat. Konon nak support site dari office kat Sentral tu. Sekali bila dah buat, test... Tak jalan. Rupanyer dorang tukar config. Ek eleee... Tapi takper... Dalam geram geram tuh aku hadapi nyer ngan senyumannn... Senyummmm jerrr..... (padahal dalam hati Tuhan jer yang tau...)

Petang lak, dapat satu call. Nengok kat HP, apasal no pelik sgt. Macam call dari oversea. Aku pon jawap...

Caller: "Hi mate, its T*** H*** here? How are you?'.
Aku: Hi... Fine here... so whats up wif the tunneling issues? I've checked on my end and everything seems to be ok. Have you sheck on your site?
Caller: Yup!! I've just realized that we've provide you wif the wrong IP. The real IP is **.**.**.** Could you please change it at your end mate?
Aku: What!! Wrong IP? Ok.. I'll do it and after that hoping that the tunnel will be okay.
Caller: Okay mate. Please do. Hoping it will be ok after that.
Aku: Definitely. Hoping it will turn out okay. Thanks...
Caller: Allwite. Chat will you later mate. Bye....

Makk aii.. Dia nyer silap. Kalau yg komplikated tuh ok gak. Ini silap bangangs lak tuh. Bulih bg salah parameter. Eiiiii...... Rasa nak jerkah jer tadi. Tapi kang jerkah kang bikin busuk nama Mesia lak. Kekeke..... Adoiii... Matsaleh...Matsaleh...Bodossss....!!!!
Pasal hati dah panas, tapi teringat deal punya pasal... so.. Control my anger... Bak kata kumpulan Dewa.. Hadapi Dengan Senyuman

Layannnnnnnnnn........

Hadapi Dengan Senyuman...

Hadapi dengan senyuman

Semua yang terjadi

Biar terjadi .

Hadapi dengan tenang jiwa

Semua... Kan baik baik saja

Bila ketetapan tuhan

Sudah ditetapkan

Tetaplah sudah .

Tak ada yang bisa merubah

Dan takkan bisa berubah

Relakanlah saja ini

Bahwa semua yang terbaik

Terbaik untuk kita semua

Menyerahlah untuk menang

Cozzy Corner

Everybody sure have their own corner that they felt cozzy. No matter whether its in their house, office or anywhere. For me... My cozzy area or corner, definitely be at my home sweet home. This is the corner where I watch all the Man U games, read all the books and magazines and not to forget... Duduk sambil berangan... kekeke... Sometimes.. do my thinking in here. Search for ideas for reports (konon .. kekekeke).

Well here we go....

A place where I always put my Aik Cheong White Coffee on it. So its called coffee table...

In the middle of the way when the East meet the West..

Eastern... Full of tradition.....

Crisp of a Western.....

Eastern + Western = Good combination. To me at least although its not to a level of perfection...

Arghhh..... Sooo Coooozzzzyyyyyy..... I likeeee....!!! Makes me feel don't wanna leave home.

I luv it and I will always luv it. At least for couple of years more. Hehehe.... While doing this, I'm configuring somtin' for the sake of someone out there. Yup!! The truth is out there (hehehe... X-Files). I'm pretty sure that it will benefit all of us. Just remember my young one, respect the force and it will respect and protect you from others... Hehehe....

Lilin owh lilin....

Lilin owh lilin...

Biarku menjadi lilin...

Membakar diri untk menerangi orang lain...

Kekeke... Entry lilin la plak. Bukan apa, sebelum nie lilin yg dibakar bagi menerangi ruang makan sewaktu aku sedang menonton, takder rumah. So tadi bila dah terlanjur pergi KLIBF (Kuala Lumpur International Book Fair), singgah jap kat Carrefour Subang. Niat nak carik groceries jer. Sekali terpandang lak bekas lilin. Mmm.. Menarik.. Apalagi.. Datang lar niat membeli barang yg tak langsung terlintas masa nak kuar tadi. Selalu nya mmg begini. Beli.. jangan tak beli.. Selagi ada kuasa membeli. Tapi .. kena gak berhati hati, jangan asyik nak membeli jer.. Kang kosong poket... Gigit jariii...

Gambar yg sempat aku ambik tgh tgh pagi buta nie lepas Man U game ....

Kasik bakar itu lilin... Pastu nak susun lak kat dining table...

Nengok gambar 2 keping kat bawah nie.. Eh ... eh...!! Macam bulih buat kad raya jerr.. kakaka...

Kan...? Kan...? Kan...? Bulih buat kad raya kan? Kan...? Kan...? Kaaaannn arr.... hehehe....

Mengikut kata awek kat kedai yg jual rumah lilin nie tadi, kat atap dia yg melengkung tuh boleh taruk air and then campurkan ngan minyak yg beraroma dua atu tiga titik. Api lilin tadi akan bertindak memanaskan bumbung tuh dan menyebabkankan air tuh pon suam and minyak tuh akan bertindak balas ngan mengeluarkan bau harum.. owhh... So kiranyer save tak yah nak beli lilin yg beraroma arr nie. Bagus gak...

Jangan terbeli minyak yang ala ala bau a****k dah arr yer.. Kekeke...

p/s - Pada yg berkenaan... Kalau nak gambar tu, hangpa double click jer lar kat image tuh, pastuh hangpa save no. Kalau nak yg raw image jugak.. Awak mail kat saya jer lar yer.. Lupa email addr arr.. Sowey..!!

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FridayNiteFutsal as usual @ Extreme Park Sunway. A bit tired after one day trip to Pekan. Playing not as usual. The pitch was quite crowded since playing with 12 people instead of 10 as usual. The game pace was quite fast. Rasa cam tak puas main pon ada. Need to back off a little bit to avoid any injuries as mentioned earlier, the game pace was a bit fast. In this condition, anything could happen since everybody are eager to score a goal. A little bit bumps here and there as usual. But nothing serious about it.

Did a little bit of warm down exercise after the game to loosen out the muscles and actually to be far from all those after game smokers... Hahaha.. (Gils arr korang... Lepas main terus sap kok...). As usual, after game, the discussions begins among all the players, not about the game, but about work. Eiiyeee... Bosan tuu... Someone also mentioned he need to go back early since goin to have a meeting tomorrow at SGB (Gils arr dorang nie.. Kerja kuat.. Bang** pon tak kerja on weekends... Kakaka...).

Lepaking as usual at Bistro SS14 after futsal session. Had a double chicken less sauce but moorrreeeeee mayo burger. Kekeke... Starving after the game. Attendees as usual, sekut, zul, hanizar, fendy, shah, piak and me. Owhh.. not to forget Adreena. Nothing mush to gossipping. A bit lack of mood to kutuking orang (hahaha....) since still a bit tired. Maybe coz of the one day trip journey to Pekan. need to go to Cyberjaya to pick up back my Kassim. Left there since sekut 'campak' me at Sg Buloh after trip to Pekan since he soooooo malas to fetch me to Cyber. Managed to convince Pai to send me back home. Tengkiuuu Paii.....

Al- Fatihah...

Yesterday morning while I am on my way to Pekan, received a call from my dad that my cousin, who was sent back to Johor had passed away. Although the day before I have visited her at hospital Selayang and did saw she was struggled with the live support equipment, but I still feel a bit shocked once received the call. Feel a bit dissappointed can't attend her funeral.... As what they said... "Yang pergi akan tetap pergi, kita yg tinggal, kehidupan nie harus diteruskan. Tuhan lebih menyayangi Kak Ani dari kita...".

Yeap.. Life has to go on... Al-Fatihah to Aruah. Semoga rohnya dicucuri rahmat dan ditempatkan di samping umatnya yg beriman...

Al Fatihah...

Sad Day....

Thursday afternoon, received a call that my cousin met with an accident and currently admitted at Selayang Hospital. ICU... Hmm... To confirm the news, I've called around. There were several news that caught me in surprise. Part of them were saying that she has gone. The other part said that she's in coma. Arghh...!! Which one is true. Hmm... Sit down and think... Selayang.. Ok... Started to call all my contacts that I know to seek for an information thru Selayang's System. First of all, checked at mortuary whether there is any female Muslim jenazah coming in today starting from morning. After 10 minutes, received call from Mortuary staff. Nope... He said. There is no Jenazah female coming in since yesterday. Fuhh.. ok.

Next, tried to call Selayang's Site Supervisor. Failed. Cannot be reached. Call someone up there from the company that handle Selayang's system. Tell him a bit bout my probs. Okay.. He would need to have the IC no. Owh.. Where shud I get her IC no? Then my fren said, her full name shud be ok. Alrite... Provide him with a full name. He will call me back in a short while. After a while got the information that she is still in ward.

Drove to Selayang as fast as I could. Reached there in 40 minutes. Straight to ward. OMG! OMG! OMG! Her condition was sooo critical. Brain injury. She is in coma. Ventilator tube all around her with all others live support equipments. Asked the doctor and she said, its serious and they can do nothing about it. Surgery? No point. Basically she lived because of the live support equipment. OMG! OMG! OMG! Did not expect it will be as bad as it is. My mak ngah eyes is full with tears. My mum also. Fuhhh.... Chat with my Pak Ngah. They decided to bring back my cousin to Johor. Waiting for the ambulance. Hmm... When I think and look at the situation, basically she's gone although in medical terms she's still alive. Sad.. Suddenly I felt awkward. The last time that I met her was during Raya Haji and she did came to my house after that. Hmm....

What a tragic day..!! Feel saddddddddd...... Hmmm

Don't feel sad my dear. What had happened has happened. Let bygone be bygone. Lets start wif a new chapter. Hopefully everything will be okay after this. Be tough...!!! We can do it if we believed we could. "I believed I can flly with or without wings...."

I raise this because in the mtg, it was your people who first gave us the impression this should not be done

Erkk...!! Woke up in the morning, and checked my mobile and it makes me smile for a second. Hehe..Yup!! I have an important meeting this morning at nine. And yup.. I'm late againn.. Thanks for your effort my dear to wake me up. Kaluts again.. but not as yesterday.. Hehehe...Prepared myself for about 45 minutes (dowh.. is it too long for a guy... Hmm...). Start the engine. Let it warm for a minute or two. Then.. there I was.. Speeding not like a bullet and far beyond like Massa nor Raikonnen. But still melanggar had laju kenbangsaan, tapi tak banyak arr...

Arrived at the office, the meeting has been postponed a bit. Waiting for the COO and CEO to arrive. Chantek. Have a Milo tarik at cafe. PD asked me whether I have read the reply mail from MOH regarding the firewall issues. Hmm... I read the mail and ... Owhhh mannnnnn... The one that I thought confused the other day actually is the one who actually to be on our side. Arghhh...!!! Reminder to you all the tech people on site, should you don't know anything about the infra, please call and ask for guidance. Do not just simply highlight in a meeting with all the stakeholders and try to show that you are the ONE...

Might need to go for a short trip to Pekan to attend power problem. Hmm... Friday should be okay. Planned to go tomorrow but since I am going to have a meeting .. againnnn... tomorrow morning, better to reschedule it to Friday... Soooo malas to go outstation nowadays...

Ringgg... Ringgg.... Ringgg......

All this while, people around me keep on labelling me as the buziest man on earth. Am I? Huh..!! Don't think so... If I think that I am the buziest man on earth, there must be someone buzier than me rite? Pak Lah especially.. kekekeke...

But this evening, after lunch especially... My hp keep on ringing and ringing and ringing.... Warrghhhhh....!! Until me pening. Battery pon going to kering. Luckily there is charger here for me to charging. Kakakaka...

Since the 'toke' already went outstation, I so called managed to find a new 'toke' today. Well..!! Not bad. Hehehe.. Still waiting for the other 'toke' so called the 'toke mahal' product. Don't know when will get the opportunity to subscribe to 'toke mahal'.

Have you ever felt taht you don't like someone even this someone never do or did anything wrong to you?Hmm... Pelik but it's truth. I'm a bit confused how I can feel the I way felt sometimes to this someone. 'Me, myself and I' that I know usually does not easy to accept someone that I've already ****. As I said earlier, it's not that this someone has done something wrong to me, but, maybe this is one of the negative side of my personality, from the first impression if I started to dislike the individual, then it will be hard for me to accept him/her no matter how good he/she do to me, I will always has a suspicious mind towards them. Reminder to you all out there, please don't have any heart feeling yar should you know one of your frenss actually is in my 'someone' list... It's just me.. It's just me.. It's just me.. Me BAD BOY... Hahaha...








On my way back, have a stop @ Kota Damansara to buy mee kari. Tapau... Umphhh...!!! Delicious. Sometimes my tummy can manupulate my mind to enteprate the food is good when it's starving eventhough the taste of the food is just ok. But.. This mee kari definitely meet my specs. Love it. Why lar I did not dicover this kedai awal2. Thanks to Babam for introducing me to this kopitiam. Besttt...

Tomorrow morning gonna have New Horizon meeting wif the CEO and gang. Erkk.. Wallaweii... Do I need to prepare anything for the meeting? Hmm... Don't think soooo...

To all the Reds and Gunners fans out there... May the force be with your teams this morning. As for the devils, tomorrow will be D Day for our battle to the semis....

Manakan Mampu...

Eeeiiiiii..... Hari nie dua tiga kali dapat call dari stakeholder. Kalau panggilan sayang tuh tak per arr jugak!! Ini boleh masuk kategori cam panggilan maut!! Kalau tlipon orang siap maki-maki tak tentu hala tuh yg aku bengang tuh... Ishh... Nak maki balik tak boleh. Sebab apa? Sebab dia **R. Kalau lar mamat or minah nie bukan orang **R... Eeiii... dah lama dah maki balik....

Saborr... Saborr... Itu jer yg mampu diucapkan. Tuh pon dalam hati jer. Muka jangan citer ar. Bebudak nie nengok pon semua control gelak. Dorang cakap, "Muka control ayu gitu...". Control ayu yerr.. Citt.. Nak nangis pon ada. Tapi kang kalau nangis tak macho la plak kan? kekeke...

Cam biasa, pagi tadi ada 929 meeting. Hmm... Aku sampai pon dah lambat. Masuk2 dewan persidangan tuh, sessi hentam menghentam vendor sedang dijalankan. Makkk aii.. Memasing punya la semangat. Aku yg tak tau apa2 pon ingat nak tumpang sekaki. Tapi tak per arr... Bagi peluang kat orang lain plak. Dah selalu bang table kalau dalam meeting nie. Tapi hari nie, badan rasa tak berapa nak sihat la plak. So tak der mood nak cakap banyak.

So.. Yang menghentam... hentam lar seteruk2nya, yang dihentam lak, hanya mampu diam jer. Dah bersalah tuh kan. Apalagi yg mampu untuk dikatakan. Better keep quiet. Kang kalau bukak mulut kang, mau kena hentam lagi yg dihentam tuh dengan penghentam (tiru cam dibebel ngan pembebel episod...Kekeke...).

Menjelang petang nie... Rasa ok sket. Ingat nak balik awal hari nie. Nak sambung kerja kat umah jer lar. Nk gunting rambs lar. Gatal dah kepala nie haa. Tak tau kenapa, dari dulu lagi, rambs yg kat atas nie tak leh nak simpan bior panjang, mesti sakit kepala nyer kalau dibiarkan... Hmm... Mujur tak gatal.. Kang orang cakap ada kutu lak... Eeeeeeeeeiiii.. Kekekeke... Lepas gunting, balik basuh sendiri jerrr. Tak yah nak suruh oarng basuhkan... Hahaha....

Ghost

I was watching Ghost aired on TV3 at 10.30 pm last nite. It's not that I layaannn this story. Since Man U game played early today, so I got nothing to watch. The thing that was fascinate me about this story is the creativity of the production team to use a soooo called songs clip that soooooo... kena with the scenes.

There was one scene that catch me the most was, when, Eza suddenly show up at the roof and inform Julie that Jamal is the real murderer of Zack Imran. And also, Jamal is the one who raped Cindy, Julie's sister instead of Zack Imran. Fuhh.. Susah nak paham nie kalau tak layan citer nie... This time, Julie's face looks very dissappointed and felt cheated with all Jamal's kindness. This is the part when the song 'Apologize' performed by Timbaland playing in the background. Perghhhhhh .... masyukkk tuu....

I've heard this song before and for me, it's ok and nothing too interesting about it. Suddenly, think to surf the net and look into the lyrics and .... the rest is history... Heheehe... Kudos to Ghost's production team on picked up a good background clips based on the scenes....

Enjoy the clip. It's a nice VC and just go thru the lyrics... Ehmmm.....



Lyrics....

I'm holding on your rope,

Got me ten feet off the ground

I'm hearin what you say but I just can't make a sound

You tell me that you need me

Then you go and cut me down, but wait

You tell me that you're sorry

Didn't think I'd turn around, and say...

It's too late to apologize, it's too late

I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late

I'd take another chance, take a fall

Take a shot for you

And I need you like a heart needs a beat

But it's nothin new - yeah yeah

I loved you with a fire red-

Now it's turning blue, and you say..."Sorry" like the angel heaven let me think was you

But I'm afraid...It's too late to apologize, it's too late

I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late

It's too late to apologize, it's too late

I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late

It's too late to apologize, yeah

I said it's too late to apologize, yeah-

I'm holdin on your rope, got me ten feet off the ground...

I think sometimes on a certain occasions when people ask us for our forgiveness, we just think that it was too late to apologize... Hmm.. Too late!! The damages has been done. But as a Melayu yg penuh dengan adab serta tatasusila yang tinggi.. We just smile and accept the apology... Hmmm...

Do or Die

Have you ever did something and then after a while when you think about it... you regreted at what have you done eventhough the thing that you've done is a good thing to others. Hmmm.....

I thought that I've maybe had help someone but on the other hand, it maybe resulting on doing bad to another person. Hmm... Now I am in the middle of 'that' junction. Dilemma... It will be not good if you know both of them and it will definitely be worst if both of them know each other. Well... In the future, I really need to think deeply about the implications that might happen before I raise up my hands on helping others if it will implicate their future. OUch..!!!

Should the thing that I worries the most happen, I definitely can't forgive myself on what have I done...

Arghhh...!!! Hate to be in this situation...

Dowhh.. You confused maaa.....

Just sit tight here in the site office at Sg Buloh while listening to Michael Buble singing 'Lost'. I've sent all my team members to outstation. Alone here... Damaiii.... without any interruption.

A bit too early I think when saying that I am damaii here at the moment. Suddenly received a call from the Dr. Not Dr in Medical. But Dr from JKR. Hehehe... You know who lar kan.. No need to mention the name here. He called me and straight away bragging on MOHnet line and firewall. Hmmpphhh.... He insist that we connect the MOHnet VPN to our firewall and do some filtering to prevent the third party that handling the solution from penetrating each hospital LAN. Hmmm...

Started to get irritating by this guy's statement and harsh words. Nak melawan kang... stakeholder. So decided to keep my mouth shut for a moment and tried to understand where is he going to. Hmm ... Confirmed!! All of them are confused!! Confused!! Confused!! Knows nuts and yet wanna brag about the things that they don't know.

At the end of the conversation, there are 3 more calls from another Dr. Dr from my office, Dr from MOH and again Dr from my office.. Dowhh... Maybe this is the Dr's call me day... Huh...!! Lucky I still can control my temper... Husss bravaaaaaaa.... Anger management deal so far so good...!! hehehe....

Menghalau atau dihalau yer..??

Halau atau sendiri nak pergi tapi kata dihalau...? Hmm... Cemana tuh yerk...?

Sometimes, kalau kita dah memang nak pergi dari tempat yang kita duduk atau mastautin, and kita tak nak orang nampak yang kita memang excited giler nak pergi, kita akan buat statement,

"Alaa.. kalau orang dah tak nak kita kat sini nak buat cemanakan? Orang dah nak halau.. Sebelum apa-apa jadik, baik kita pergi...".

Ayat tuh kengkadang nampak macam kita yg jadik mangsa (sebab kena halaukan), tapi sebenarnya memang kita nak pergi dari situ. Secara tak langsung membuatkan orang yg dengar tuh jadik cam serba salah and will think couples of times. Ada apa2 perbuatan atau kata2 yg salah ker yg dah dibuat secara atau tidak secara langsung? Hmm... Hehehe... Selalu gak buat statement ala2 gini kat orang. Tujuan? Nak biar orang yg dengar tuh rasa bersalah and accept apa yg kita nak dorang fikir. Hmm.. Kata2 dalam bahasa Melayu nie, kalau pandai diguna and kena lenggok bicara... Memang bulih manipulate keadaan. Manipulate orang apatah lagi. Owhh... Manipulasi dalam kosa kata yg betol (kekeke.. bak kata pakar bahasa dari Sabah).

Berbeza lak kalau kita betol2 berniat nak halau. Selalunya, dalam keadaan cenggini... macam2 alasan kita create nak suruh orang tuh pergi atau tak bagi orang tuh datang ke tempat kita.

"Busy lar... Tak payah larr. Lagipon tak der orang kat sini.." or "Ngko tak ke lain ker? Asyik ke sini jerr?" or "Aku bukan tak bagi ngko datang, tapi kejap lagi aku nak kuar arr... Ada hal penting...".

Macam2 alasan yg akan kita create kalau kita nak halau atau tak terima orang jadi tetamu. And kebiasaannyer, alasan tu dibuat dengan cara yg abis lembut demi untuk menjaga hati dan perasaan orang lain. Tak kisah langsung walaupun hati dan perasaan sendiri terluka. Kan? Kan? Standard.... Memang typical orang Melayu yg penuh dengan peradaban dan tatasusila untuk menjaga kesopanan dan kesantunan kita. Ehh.. Itu rukunegara yg kelima tuuu... 'Kesopanan dan kesusilaan'. Hehehe.. Zaman sekarang nie, rasanya statement tuh dah tak berapa sesuai lagi kot untuk semua keadaan. Bukan tak sesuai langsung... Tapi tak berapa nak sesuai (dalam sesetengah keadaan laa...). Maklumlar, kalau nak kejar kemajuan, sikit sebanyak pengorbanan kena lar dilakukan. Tu lar yang orang cakap, harga satu kemajuan.

Timbul balik persoalan kat dalam benak nie... Dah bersedia ker kita nak terima kemajuan nie? Hmm... Sekali lagi... Tepuk dada tanya selera....

p/s Bukan niat untuk memerli...
Jauh sekali untuk mengeji...
Sekadar untuk peringatan kepada diri...
Dan juga bangsa yg ku kasihi....

Perghhh..... Patriotik ker aku nie... Kikikikikiki.....

Cekodok owhh Cekodok...

Cekodok owhh cekodok....

Rupamu tak sehebat rasamu....

Sekali rasa... gerenti tak jemu....

Tak kira lar sekarang mahupon dulu...

Emmm..lazatnyer cekodok ituu...

Cekodok owh cekodok...

Kadangkala dirimu tak langsung dihargai...

Dek kerana rupamu yg tak berapa nak berseri...

Tapi bagiku engkau tetap di hatii....

Kerana asal usul mu telah lama diwarisi...

Cekodok owh cekodok...

Ada yg panggey cekodok pisang...

Ada yang panggey jemput jemput pisang...

Tak kisah apa nama gelaran

Yang penting .. sedap nyer bila dihidang...

sambil minum petanggg....

Owhh .. Cekodok.....

P/S - Buat penggemar cekodok di ketaps... Kekeke...